"You never know how strong you are... 
                     ...until being strong is the only choice you have."  ~ Bob Marley

I suppose one of the hardest things for me in "breaking out" is the worry/hurt/fear/confusion of those I *LOVE* and that *LOVE* me... this hasn't been an *easy* thing! :( But it has been a NECESSARY thing... although GREATLY misunderstood by others. To say, "I am no longer a Christian" sounds DEVASTING to -almost- EVERYONE I know and love (and that knows and loves me).... I do NOT take it lightly. I DO realize the seriousness of such a matter. BUT (what others DON'T understand) is that I ALSO have come to realize the seriousness in saying "I AM a Christian" . One is blasphemous to "others", the other is blasphemous to YHWH (as HARD as that is for most to understand). Therefore, I MUST take courage... I MUST be strong... and I MUST break out of the idea that people have of me. I am 'no longer a christian'... I AM a worshipper and follower of the Almighty-- YHWH. HE *ALONE* do I acknowledge and obey.

It is NOT my intent to hurt anyone or change anyone... only to live in the truth as I have come to know it, as freely as others do. What is TRUTH to me, is "error" to most people I know... and what is ERROR to me, is "truth" to most... but we ALL have a responsibility to LIVE what we KNOW/"BELIEVE", and *I* cannot close my eyes or bury my head in the sand to what I have learned-- just because it is hard or offensive :( Do you?  No... and neither can I. So... this is a step to live in the truth, not to stir up strife or controversy. If anyone KNOWS me at all, then you KNOW I do NOT like confrontation or controversy. But I DESIRE RIGHTEOUSNESS... and so my heart follows after YHWH and HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS-- no matter the cost. Hard in some ways, yes... but, no other choice~